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Post by schwung on May 24, 2008 22:26:27 GMT -5
I was not brave today. I did not go to see Lily into the next world, and I am very grateful for Bonnie and Dr. Hannah for being the strong ones today. Lily's death has hit me very hard. I have been a walking zombie the last few days, unable to accept that Lily might and would die. I loved her so much....when she was good she was my little Lilybug...my Lilypad...my Llama-Lily. When she was naughty she was the Lila Monster but she was still my girl...she was saucy and confident and so sure of her place in this world. She had no fear, and seemed the strongest of all the horses, the least likely to have any long-term damage from her ordeal, that it is just so hard to take and think about even now that she is gone. I have cried many tears for her the last few days, but in the end I could not be there to say goodbye. I feel like I let her down in a way, and I am ashamed of myself for my failure to her. I agonized over it all night, but in the end I chose to not to go, and to allow myself to not have that memory of her burned into my brain as my last of her. I hope she forgives me. Here are some photos of her. Goodbye sweet, precious, adorable, lovable Lily. I will never forget you.       Doing her best Llama impression:    Stealing my sunglasses:   |
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Post by Gingersmom-Tate on May 24, 2008 22:29:21 GMT -5
Oh Bonny, Jaime,Val and everyone who was Lily's caretaker, I'm so sorry. I prayed for little Lily. I'm relieved she left with no fear and only knew the love that SAFE had for her. I'm glad she spent her day on the grass being a young filly, thank you for giving her that. There are no real comforting words, I realize that, but Lily's spirit will remain alive in many hearts for years to come. Take comfort in knowing you gave her the best of everything and she now runs free with Heavens herd.
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Post by huskiesnhorses on May 24, 2008 22:43:34 GMT -5
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Donation to SAFE $105.00 USD
In honor of and in memory of Lily - our precious girl.
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Post by trillium on May 24, 2008 22:48:02 GMT -5
Jamie, please do not feel ashamed for not being there. You have suffered enough in your losss of Lily. We all know how much you loved her. The shame for what has happened to Lily and her herdmates belongs to the woman who did not care enough for them to even bother to feed them. You and the other members of SAFE picked up the mess she left and did everything you could. It is heartbreaking Lily could not br saved, but the effort you put into saving her was valiant.
RIP, sweet Lily. Blessings to you Jamie for all you have been through.
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Post by akoehmstedt on May 24, 2008 23:40:11 GMT -5
RIP sweet Lilly.
Jamie, you should not feel ashamed, you did so much for her and Lilly knows it. Take peace in what you did for her and the good times that you two had.
My thoughts are think everyone.
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Post by thewhiterider on May 24, 2008 23:51:02 GMT -5
With heavy hearts and a tear in our eyes sweet little Lily, we must say goodbye. Please understand that we've done all we could... if there was more that we could do you know that we would. We're sitting right here gently rubbing your ears while we talk to you softly, trying to hold back the tears. The memories you gave us we'll never forget... especially the ones of the day we all met. Close your eyes now and go to sleep, we'll pray to the Lord your soul he'll keep. Go in peace now our good friend... we'll stay right here with you until the end. Dream of that special day and time when we'll meet at the Bridge and all will be fine. We'll run and play side by side... with a soft warm feeling deep down inside. Your memory will live on in each one of us We gave you our love and you gave us your trust. Have a safe journey through the long night... we promise you'll wake in God's gentle light. So with heavy hearts and tears in our eyes, just for now little Lily we must say goodbye.   |
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Post by huskiesnhorses on May 25, 2008 0:34:41 GMT -5
With heavy hearts and a tear in our eyes sweet little Lily, we must say goodbye. Please understand that we've done all we could... if there was more that we could do you know that we would. We're sitting right here gently rubbing your ears while we talk to you softly, trying to hold back the tears. The memories you gave us we'll never forget... especially the ones of the day we all met. Close your eyes now and go to sleep, we'll pray to the Lord your soul he'll keep. Go in peace now our good friend... we'll stay right here with you until the end. Dream of that special day and time when we'll meet at the Bridge and all will be fine. We'll run and play side by side... with a soft warm feeling deep down inside. Your memory will live on in each one of us We gave you our love and you gave us your trust. Have a safe journey through the long night... we promise you'll wake in God's gentle light. So with heavy hearts and tears in our eyes, just for now little Lily we must say goodbye. That was beautiful.......thank you |
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Post by coconut on May 25, 2008 0:57:03 GMT -5
I've been thinking out Lily all day
Her life may have been far too short and though we may never enjoy the grown-up horse she would have been, we are all truly changed for having loved her (even from afar). From the moment these horses entered my sights and my heart they became my extended horse family and I care as deeply as I do for the horses I see everyday. That's what motivates me to contribute in the best way I can. Her passing shall serve as an inspiration to continue to do whatever I can to help and work towards a day that no horse will have to suffer as she did.
To her caretakers...all of you...You are amazing people. Lily was WELL LOVED and she never deserved any less. THANK YOU for letting her know what LOVE is. I hate to imagine how she would have suffered and not understood what was happening to her had she been left to stay where she was. She left with love surrounding her...with her angels protecting her to the very end.
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Post by Whitewolf821 on May 25, 2008 2:41:43 GMT -5
I am at a loss of words right now. I'm so sorry to everyone so close to Lily for going through the loss of this beautiful little filly. Thank you for showing her the love and kindness she never would have known otherwise.
Jaime, I know words don't really mean much, but please don't feel bad for not being there with Lily. I have respect for Bonnie being able to be with her, but I, personally, bear no ill feelings for you not being able to be there. You spent so much time with her I can't imagine the feelings you have had to deal with. Thank you for taking such wonderful care of her
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Post by bsnlark on May 25, 2008 5:52:55 GMT -5
Jamie, please do not feel ashamed for not being there. You have suffered enough in your losss of Lily. We all know how much you loved her. The shame for what has happened to Lily and her herdmates belongs to the woman who did not care enough for them to even bother to feed them. You and the other members of SAFE picked up the mess she left and did everything you could. It is heartbreaking Lily could not br saved, but the effort you put into saving her was valiant. RIP, sweet Lily. Blessings to you Jamie for all you have been through. No words can truly express how we all feel ( except the poem up above, which I couldnt read, for then I would truly fall apart and my face wud begin to leak  ) I am a true believer in the after life which continues to watch over us from beyond the bridge. I heard the thunder, and saw the gathering clouds, as those beyond the bridge gathered above to meet Lily . She now runs free, kicking up her heels, and saying " I am free,I am 'SAFE Lily of the Valley' and I will always be with you all " R.I.P. (romp in peace ) Lil L.O.V. ( lily of valley ) Peggy and the herd |
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Post by jodycat on May 25, 2008 8:08:18 GMT -5
Thank you Bonnie and Dr. Hannah for giving Lily a sweet and peaceful death, and for letting her go outside and be a young horse for a while. It is so sad that this was the kindest ending for her. But it was, and Lily won't be sick or scared any more. Jaime, please stop beating yourself up. You were with her, in your heart and in your mind, right to the end. I believe Lily knew that. It took tremendous courage - tremendous courage - to rescue the Carnation horses, to witness the others who hadn't made it, and to work so hard to help all of the survivors - dealing with their ups and downs, seeing their weak and broken down bodies, worrying 24/7. Not many could do this work, Jaime. I too believe you'll meet again, that little Lily is just on the other side of the curtain. Until then, she will live in your heart and the hearts of others at SAFE. And you and SAFE can be proud that you gave Lily many weeks of happiness and fun and love. My heart is with you all today. |
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Post by Kea's Crest on May 25, 2008 10:55:19 GMT -5
We are saddened to hear the news about Lily. We held out hope of a miracle for her but that was not to be. Looking at those last pictures of her touches our heart. Sweet girl. Some times we give our best but our best is just not enough. But many times it is....  Thank you to all you SAFE volunteers for enduring the hard times. What you are doing is good and it will outweigh the sad times. We appreciate your sacrifices and all the horses you help do too. With sad hearts for Lily's passing we look ahead to make better what we can. Happy trails Lily. You were loved by many. |
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Post by leahlady on May 25, 2008 13:22:52 GMT -5
What can I say that has not been said already.
I am so sad.
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Post by shekaberry on May 25, 2008 15:39:23 GMT -5
OK, that poem made me cry, but it suits Little Lily-loo perfectly. The compassion that Jaime and all of the group showed towards Lily and the remaining babies is what makes SAFE so great. Lily could not have had better care in the last months of her life.
Jaime - you opened your home and heart to Lily and gave her the gift of love that she so deserved. You are an angel.
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Post by zeesmom on May 25, 2008 15:58:35 GMT -5
This is so sad. I was really hoping and praying with the rest of you that she would rebound and pull through.
It is so hard to lose a baby. It just hurts and seems so unfair. Although it won't make the ache go away - she experienced lots of love and lots of food and the joy of being a content horse at the end because of SAFE.
Thanks for being there for so many horses in need.
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